Time; It never seems to be enough? I wish I could turn it around. I want to cherish it, but I don't seem to be able to do it. At least I have someone to talk to, I'm just 16, so my life is relaxing and stress-free. She's the oldest in the family, whenever her siblings have some problem they would go to her. Whenever my grandmother's not feeling well the first person to call is her. Sure, seems that she's very filial, that's cuz she is. She's the head of the family, a divorcee, a loving mother, grandmother, aunt. I really love her, she carries a cheerful aura around her. But I didn't treat her that well, I often get annoyed when she keeps calling to ask me to help her sms, cuz she don't know some English words. She somewhat tells me about her life, but I didn't know how to console her. I regretted having treated her like that. sigh, but what to do? Little that we know that she's that pressurized. But I didn't know it was so serious. Now that I come to think of it, she has no one to turn to. Now, part of her memory's... gone. It's heart-breaking to see such a good person getting this kind of illness. I'm very sad because of it, but what can I do? but to cherish what I have now, and not to regret later. So now, I won't keep everything inside me, for fear of losing my memory. It's more horrible to forget the one you love then to lose her/him. I haven't visited her yet, she couldn't recognise my brother, or my dad; her brother. At least she remembers her son, and her mother; my grandma. I'll be visiting her soon , but will she recognise me? I might breakdown in front of her if she doesn't. Hopefully I wouldn't. The doctors said that she just needs a lot of rest, and there may be a chance of 'reviving' some of her memories under supervision and some medicine, I think. I wish, she'll be alright. Actually, as long as she's healthy and safe, that part of her memory will be with me. So it's alright if she can't remember, right? It was long while it lasted. Time to move on. (:
