Friends...or not?

"We've gone our own ways and I know its for the best,
but sometimes I wonder will I ever have a friend like you again?"
-Blink 182

So little words but they mean so much. I mean, don't you ever get the feeling you might lose this best friend of yours, even though, you don't want to? I'm worried & scared that something like that may happen. It will, next year. I want to stay in contact with this guys I love so much, but I have to let go someday...?

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There's this one girl, whom didn't like me, & I only found out 2 years later. How pathetic. And now, I'm still unsure of the friendship that we have. Is it because of guilt that she's talking to me? Or is it that she doesn't have anyone else? But I feel guilty whenever I see her lonely. It's like, no matter how much she talked about me, I still feel for her. Not in the sense that I'm in love with her, just those kind of friendship love. True love, however, is a different story. I get the vibes that she's trying to get close to us so that she can get her former best friend back, but i know that she'll never get back with her unless she realises what she was, is, and how to change for the better. Feels like she's trying to steal my friend from me, wanting her hand phone number & all. But I know this friend of mine won't get swayed away that easily, she's assured me that, but i can't help but think. Anyway, It's not her fault she doesn't hang out with other girls last year, & it isn't her fault that she can't go out much. Right now, she's thinking that she has always been our friend, and she'll always be, but that's not the case! She doesn't know that. *sigh* Why is it so complicated?! I wonder how she survive this year if she still remains the same. Should I go talk to her? Is it the right thing to do? I don't know. People talked to her about this matter, but she hasn't changed, not one bit. ): & there's another group of girls who probably might get depression upon knowing that actually nobody likes them, except for maybe, 1 or 2 friends? I'm just glad that I don't fall into that category, I might return to my old self- 'the crybaby', 'cry princess', as they used to call me. At least I have mummy, my bestestestest friend (: So these type of hypocrites, cowards, morons might just get it someday. I guess it's good that I don't like to gossip much anymore? Oh well, at least I have at least 10 friends I can count on. I love them!